I really feel you’re writing Emily and find so much connection in it. But today; the idea of falling in love with your little child again, before the disease and illness, that really struck me as both heartbreaking and hopeful. I’m also drawn to younger photos of Larsen, ones I may not have paid so much attention to if he were still here but now I live in those years in my head, they have subconsciously become my go-to memories. And perhaps you are right, it’s the child you lose before you lose your child and it feels safe to find them again. Beautiful thoughts, thank you for sharing, and as always, helping me back to my own grief while teaching me all about beautiful Neve ❤️
Thank you Holly. That resonates. It feels safe to find the child you lose before you lose your child. The trauma of the final years is harder to step into. xx
I really feel you’re writing Emily and find so much connection in it. But today; the idea of falling in love with your little child again, before the disease and illness, that really struck me as both heartbreaking and hopeful. I’m also drawn to younger photos of Larsen, ones I may not have paid so much attention to if he were still here but now I live in those years in my head, they have subconsciously become my go-to memories. And perhaps you are right, it’s the child you lose before you lose your child and it feels safe to find them again. Beautiful thoughts, thank you for sharing, and as always, helping me back to my own grief while teaching me all about beautiful Neve ❤️
Thank you Holly. That resonates. It feels safe to find the child you lose before you lose your child. The trauma of the final years is harder to step into. xx
Another beautiful piece Emily. Your writing is so moving.