Grief is a complicated thing isn't it ? I love the story of the juggling Olivers...who knew ? I often think of similarly funny things that are part of my memory of Jen... all the ways she would keep us organized as a family...so many things trigger memory . She is always there and so is Neve. OX
So agree, almost everything triggers my memory. Even the things that don't seem linked to Neve, they often make me ponder this fact, which in turns triggers a memory!
Pathos and humour - this bit broke me - 'I watched her die. I held her hand, as her body cooled. I sat with her, with her stillness and her silence, for 36 hours. And then we buried her. But still, my brain questions me incessantly, “Where is Neve? How can she be gone?".' - and then you went on to make me smile ... bit like my memory of Neve too xx
These past few years have been a real lesson for me, in the power of bringing smiles and tears/sadness together and accepting them both. Another gift from Neve. xx
Dear Emily, you write beautifully and your drawings are beautiful. I am 1,5 years down the line, terrible emptiness alternated with a deep deep pain, sick to the core. And my greatest regret that I couldn't say a final goodbye (sudden death). I have good times and bad times. Watching Matt Fraser on youtube gives me hope. Now I am following courses myself and meditate a lot and that gives me some peace. I had a beautiful reading from Casey Mackey. That helped a lot, but the pain, sadness and emptiness is still there. I wish you lots of healing, lots of beautiful energy, lots of love a
Grief is a complicated thing isn't it ? I love the story of the juggling Olivers...who knew ? I often think of similarly funny things that are part of my memory of Jen... all the ways she would keep us organized as a family...so many things trigger memory . She is always there and so is Neve. OX
So agree, almost everything triggers my memory. Even the things that don't seem linked to Neve, they often make me ponder this fact, which in turns triggers a memory!
Pathos and humour - this bit broke me - 'I watched her die. I held her hand, as her body cooled. I sat with her, with her stillness and her silence, for 36 hours. And then we buried her. But still, my brain questions me incessantly, “Where is Neve? How can she be gone?".' - and then you went on to make me smile ... bit like my memory of Neve too xx
These past few years have been a real lesson for me, in the power of bringing smiles and tears/sadness together and accepting them both. Another gift from Neve. xx
Dear Emily, you write beautifully and your drawings are beautiful. I am 1,5 years down the line, terrible emptiness alternated with a deep deep pain, sick to the core. And my greatest regret that I couldn't say a final goodbye (sudden death). I have good times and bad times. Watching Matt Fraser on youtube gives me hope. Now I am following courses myself and meditate a lot and that gives me some peace. I had a beautiful reading from Casey Mackey. That helped a lot, but the pain, sadness and emptiness is still there. I wish you lots of healing, lots of beautiful energy, lots of love a
nd lots of strength on this difficult road.